Don't you just hate being that guy that everyone thinks is stupid. The guy that wants to be friends with people, but that for one reason or another is refused this right. And then you try with different people, and get the same outcome? Or maybe you already have your group of friends, but you feel like you're getting slowly pushed out of their lives. Or, maybe you don't feel that way?
I think being mildly depressed makes me write better.
Well, that's the way I feel. At least, in the past two years it has. Trying to fit in is hard with a group of people that have known each other since pre-school. Yeah, since pre-school. What's worse is that my brother (I love my brother, don't get me wrong) seemed to have fit in just fine. Especially now with him have been a football player.
I hate feeling alone. I thrive off of being with people. I melt when I'm alone. When I'm alone, or feel alone. In any aspect of my life. Do you know how hard it is to be a good Christian when everybody around you (including the people that claim to be Christian) refuse to act properly. Especially with those that claim to be Christian, but you can't tell the difference between him and the next guy.
What I really hate is when I'm trying to get in with a certain croup, or person, but someone else gets in. It's like, "Oh, you're not good enough, but this guy is." Ugh, people are the worst part of everything.
Crap, my dad just interrupted me.
If you were wondering where I got all of this from, that's between me and them. Also, I guess I needed to let out all of my feelings about this thing. That I've been holding in for a while.
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