I feel I have the right to speak my mind. Right now, I'm not happy. I feel I get to talk about the way I feel around you guys.
Dear ["friend(s)"],
I will be quite frank. I don't want to hang out with you, and I don't like hanging out with you. I do anyway, in the hopes that I shall one day emerge from the background, and finally become one of you, not just static noise. I guess I'm just too different for you. That would be okay, except I've tried changing for you. I've tried shutting up, but that doesn't help. You continue to ignore me, and write me off. I try to speak in the midst of a conversation, and there is no response. I love you all, but I don't feel loved, or even liked. I want to be able to hang out with you and have fun, not be sad at the fact that I'm an extra wheel. I guess, you expect me to be my brother. I'll tell you though, we're brothers, we are not the same person. I'm sad to be moving away from you. I'm sad, because I'll never get the chance to be one of you. I'm going to miss all the times we never had, the times we could have had. I hope you'll realize what you were missing, when you didn't let me in. I hope one day, you wish you could reverse time and change things. Most of all, I hope you don't treat others, the way you treated me.
Sincerely,
The friend I could have been.
